Some of you have probably noticed I’ve been rather quiet here lately. Some of you have (graciously!) asked about me at tournaments because I haven’t been as present as of late.
Thank you for that. It means so much to me.
I’m in a slump.
I can’t find the Wonder Woman within me right now.
I wonder if she’ll ever come back. I’m afraid she won’t.
Summer Nationals (known as the July Challenge to some) took more out of me than I had realized.
I don’t know why.
I’m being gentle with myself and being patient about training. This is hard because normally I’m a big go-getter. It’s hard to know what I need to do to train and yet feel NO desire whatsoever to do it.
I went to New Orleans this past weekend to qualify for Summer Nationals. As soon as I made the top four (and qualified) I didn’t care anymore and let victory slide through my fingers.
I settled for “good enough” and that bothers me.
It hurts to train. I don’t want to hurt. I like being able to navigate my staircase in the morning without having to worry that my legs will collapse and send me sliding to the bottom.
A tiny part of me still has the spark but I can’t find the catalyst to start the blazing inferno of passion that training requires.
Any one else ever felt like this? What did you do? Did you overcome your slump? How?
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